Besides His grace and mercy, God’s sense of humor is one of my favorite characteristics of God.
Maybe I notice it so much because over the last *mouth covered as I speak* years, I have used humor to cover up so many of my personal insecurities which come alive within the characters of my stories.
As a child, if someone looked at me cross-eyed I’d get my feelings hurt. As a teen, I had self-esteem issues galore. Picture Ally Sheedy in the Breakfast Club and you get a good picture of how I thought others viewed me in high school. I was the crazy gal who ran around with the stories in my head. I didn’t care much for clubs. I had a few good friends. You might have thought back then that I didn’t feel the necessity of having many more, but I also never felt comfortable reaching out to befriend others. Why? Ally Sheedy’s character was a bit weird, and most people back away from weird—except on Facebook.
I’ve come to learn, though, that the perception I had of myself isn’t what most people saw in me. If they did, I doubt that many of my high school class would have befriended me—even on Facebook. There is this one guy I thought would close out his Facebook account, search for a new identity, and go undercover when I asked him to friend me. To my surprise, he friended me almost immediately. I must not have scared him too badly.
Not too long ago, I argued with my best friend from high school. She said she had a picture of me wearing a bikini. I swore I never would have had the nerve to do that—especially since I thought my 115 pounds was equal to the weight and proportion of an elephant. Then she sent me the picture.
I was wearing a bikini.
And, well, a fifteen year old, 115 pound, Fay Thompson didn’t look too bad wearing a bikini. Today, let’s just say, that where a bikini and Fay Lamb are concerned, modesty is a blessing bestowed upon those who might have been subjected to such a sight.
I wonder if that is the reason I received the Obesity Awareness invitation on Facebook from the fellow I knew in high school who so readily friended me.
Hmm…maybe I should unfriend him.
So, how did I get beyond the trauma of high school and the negative perception of myself?
Really? You thought I’d gotten past all my issues.
Only kidding. I’m not the insecure little teenager any longer. Well, most of the time anyway. I overcame my issues with God’s help and a healthy dose of humor. When I stopped taking my life so seriously, an entire new world opened up to me. Because I accepted myself as I am, most people have accepted me—phobias, sarcastic humor, stupidity, ranting psychopath, and all. I’d like to think that I’m an encourager for others to learn how to deal with their own similar issues.
The truth is, I wouldn’t change me for the world…well, maybe, a few things, like my double chin and the crooked smile. I might even like to drop about twenty years and get rid of a little too much ice cream hanging in my middle.
Well, now, that fellow sending me that Obesity Awareness invitation is just beginning to irritate me.
But seriously, God designed me the way that I am…Wondrously made are the words He used. Still, the picture that others need to see when they look in my direction shouldn’t be me at all. It needs to be the reflection of the One who created the soul that is uniquely me. And since God has gifted me with the desire to tell stories, I need to share stories that show my insecurities but reflect His ability to resolve them.
As a writer, God has put all my issues to work. In my latest release, Stalking Willow, Willow has a problem overcoming her past. Bitterness has skewed the way she sees her younger self, and it has colored her entire world with envy and anger. In Charisse, a novel about grace and forgiveness, the heroine has forgotten how to trust God because her eyes are so fixed on gaining retribution for the wrongs done to those she loves. In yet another upcoming release, Liberty, the heroine has such staggering self-esteem issues that she can’t see that the handsome man she longs for really does love her—just the way she is.
Serious issues, yes, but I never would have been able to tackle them without first learning to laugh at those very problems I still occasionally struggle with even today.
No, God doesn’t want us to tear ourselves down, but he doesn’t mind us using humor to overcome the pain of our insecurities. I have a picture in my mind of heaven. I envision the Lord walking beside me, His hand on my shoulder, laughing, and saying, “Remember that boy in high school? What were you thinking?”
Fay Lamb is an acquisition editor for Pelican Book Group. She also provides freelance fiction edits.
Her emotionally charged stories remind the reader that God is always in the details. Fay has recently contracted with Write Integrity Press for two four-book series. Stalking Willow, the first in the Amazing Grace romantic suspense series is currently available for purchase, and Charisse, the first release in her The Ties That Bind contemporary romance series will be available in July, 2013. The second story in the Amazing Grace series, Better than Revenge, is set for release in September 2013.
Fay is a past-secretary for American Christian Fiction Writers. She served for four years as the moderator for ACFW’s critique group, Scribes. For her volunteer efforts for ACFW, she received the Service Members Award in 2010. She was also a semi-finalist that year in the ACFW Genesis Contest.
Fay and her husband, Marc, reside in Titusville, Florida, where multi-generations of their families have lived. The legacy continues with their two married sons and five grandchildren (with the sixth on the way).
To purchase the book or read reviews of Willow Shade:
Amazon for print book: http://amzn.to/ZIzpFo
To connect with Fay:
www.faylamb.com (Fay’s website and blog: On the Ledge)
www.facebook.com/fay.lamb (personal FB page)
www.facebook.com/AuthorFay (Fay’s fan page)
www.facebook.com/TacticalEd (Fay is the Tactical Editor, sharing self-editing tips)
www.twitter.com/FayLamb (Fay’s Twitter address)